I woke up alone and I looked at my phone
And you called me four times, but I still felt alone
I can't tell you I'm not thinking of you anymore
I travelled six hours for the sake of distraction
Grown more in a year with my own self compassion
I know it would be easier just to settle

I don't think of you
Like I used to do
Like I used to do

Mourning a future I know could've been
And I'm wanting to please you, but I'm begging to leave
Your body knows before your mind
Though in your head it's fine

I don't think of you
I got too used to you
Like I always do

Missing you isn't enough
Wanting you isn't enough
We were too young to call it what it was
Hate yourself, now that's alright
Hate being alone, so stay the night
You don't love me you, just need me to stay alive
It kills me to be kind
It kills me to be kind

Romanticize dancing in the kitchen together
In our shared house, fall asleep on each other
But I fear the suburban life
Not like you'd remember
You finally got up, and you wanted to change
Now I'm in New York because I couldn't wait any longer
But I think it's for the better
For the better

I don't think of you (I don't think of you)
Like you want me to
Like I used to do (like I used to do)

Missing you isn't enough
Wanting you isn't enough
We were too young to call it what it was
Hate myself now that's alright
Hate being alone, so stay the night
You don't love me, you just need me to stay alive
It kills me to be kind
It kills me to be kind

I heard you fucked somebody else
Despite how bad you felt
Need somebody in your bed to drown that noise in your head
But I keep you in my mind
Though I faked it every time
You know it kills me to be kind
It killed me to be kind

Give it all up for us
Give it all up for us
You could give it all up for us, and it won't be enough
You'd give it all up for us
You'd give it all up for us
But that doesn't mean it was love
It doesn't mean it was love

I woke up alone and I looked at my phone
And you called me six times but I still felt alone
Can I tell you I don't think of you anymore?